Body Wisdom: Illness is an Energetic Reset
We've all done it. When an electronic or technological device isn't behaving properly, we simply turn it off, wait awhile, and turn it back on. The total system reset is all it needs.
The same thing works with our bodies and nervous systems. Heck, sleep is a natural biological reset. We naturally power down at least once every 24 hours, and when we don't, we are apt to have some pretty intense functional issues.
But sometimes, a full night's sleep isn't enough. Sometimes we get sick. Sometimes we need a full-on energetic reset, a detox. Sometimes, that happens in the form of illness. I like to think of a body illness as our body’s way of telling us we need to clean out our systems in a bigger way. About once a year, my computer does something similar. It yells at me because I have over-worked it for too long. It requires that I take some time to clean up the hard-drive and delete the old files that are taking up too much band-width and RAM, and I reorganize things so it can function for efficiently. It’s a long laborious, and sometimes painful process, not unlike a body illness. Whether it’s my computer or my body, the process is grueling, and the results are always well worth the effort.
A few weeks ago, I picked up a nasty virus. I like to tout that I have a rock-solid immune system, so when I do get something, I’m usually a little knocked off my ground. This one has been a doozy. I think I got it from playing legos with my nephew who was recovering from a week-long bug. Given the pandemic, I couldn’t help but wonder. My neighbor had the ‘rona a couple months ago, and I have all the same symptoms. But, I’ve had two negative test results, and my urgent care doc said it was probably something else.
I don’t care what the western medical doctors want to call it. I’ve convinced myself that it’s my body reset. You see, I get sick like this about once every 4-6 years. The last one was over Christmas 2017, which puts me right on track. I also know that when I get sick like this, I ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS feel much better afterwards. Sure, it takes awhile to recover, but when I do, I feel AH-MAZE-BALLS!
While I’m enduring the symptoms, I like to analyze them to better understand and be more mindful of what exactly I am upgrading in my system with the reset. Here’s a summarized list of my symptoms and what I believe they are doing for me in this next energetic power-up I’m getting.
Typically I think of sore throats as my voicebox telling me that either I’ve been saying something I shouldn’t, or that I’m holding something back that I should be saying. But this sore throat was different. It wasn’t sore as much as it was achey. It felt deeper. That got me to thinking that this isn’t about something recent, but about larger concepts and ideas that I have been holding back for a longer time. This sore throat felt more like a bulge, a knot I had to swallow around.
I wonder, as a writer, have I been censoring myself? Are there things I haven’t said that I have been swallowing, for years, that have now turned into a much bigger expression that needs to come out in a bigger way? I did just start (a few months ago) producing content on Tiktok, and it is feeling like a whole new way to express myself, more honestly.
The next symptom to appear was the fever. We know this one all too well, the toxic ache of muscles coupled with that foggy heavy head feeling that always walks hand-in-hand with sweating and chills. It’s that overall sense of *sick* or *not right*. This is the symptom that knocks me “out of commission.” It is the symptom that says “no, you can’t do ANYTHING right now…just rest.” Most other symptoms I can kinda push to the side and work my way through, but this one makes me STOP.
When my computer isn’t doing well and needs a re-boot, it usually starts running its fan in overdrive. If I restart more than once and it still runs the fan, I know I need to take a deeper dive into the hard-drive. I can’t run any applications. I need to stop everything and re-adjust the deeper inner functions.
Fever and heavy head are my body’s way of kicking on the internal fans into overdrive. I know I need to STOP EVERYTHING, cancel my workload, and go back to the basics of how my body functions. Hydrate. Rest. Hydrate. Rest. Hydrate. Rest. Repeat. All that hydration means a total cleansing of the system, just like cleaning out the files of my computer hard-drive. This is the time when I look into what is essential and not-essential and I get rid of the excess, in big ways.
This time, the congestion in my sinuses reached a level of pressure I have never felt in my head ever before. At one point I told friends and family that I felt like my whole head was a giant pimple that needed to be popped by Dr. Pimple Popper. (btw – I do not recommend binge-watching Dr. Pimple Popper while you’re sick).
Usually, I consider sinus pressure and congestion to be about our body blocking the senses from input of information that we don’t need. For example, I have worked with a lot of clients with chronic sinus issues who also live with verbally abusive people. Their sinuses are trying to block them from receiving too much of that negative input in their environment. I had a client once who had sinus infections all the time, and they always went away when she had vacation from work. Turns out, she had a very demanding and insulting boss. When she quit her job and found a position in a company that was more rewarding and encouraging, her sinus issues went away completely.
For me, post-pandemic, I realized that in the last year I have consumed more news than I have in my entire life, collectively. I have always found that reading the news is a laborious chore in discerning relevant information from mis-information and dis-information. I have always found for myself as an over-thinking introvert, that processing too much news is exhausting because it doesn’t match what I know to be right for me, in my core. But, after a year of ingesting, consuming, processing, and digesting too much, my sinues have finally kicked in and said NO MORE! This pressure was more than I could bare some nights. I had to sleep sitting up just so gravity woul